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i am nothing without you.

April 27th, 2008 (05:03 pm)

uhh i haven't updated in like forever, well not properly.

i don't really know what to write,
quick update on last week; 
monday; thorpe park was truely amazing, i love my girlies. :D we had such fun. although i thought my neck might have fallen off in the day it was totoally worth it, 100% :] i want to go back right now.

tuesday; first day back at school, i ussually love the first days back at school or at least i used to. i hatded it, i hated it so much, i want it to go away right now. it was a pretty shit day and i don't even remember what happened. >.< i wish i could just go to maths and art lessons and that is it. :/ eurgh i hate school. 
in the evening my mum went out so my dad came round cuz i'm still not allowed on my own in the house for more than three night, this is just getting stupid, i'm not a baby! i hate my social worker; go die in a little hole. you runied my life. i'm not even going to go into that.

wednesday; school was shit yet again. poooooooor as. went to see happy-go-lucky at the cinema with my dad, cuz yet again me mother was out. any how, the film was really good, i absoluitly loved it and it was pretty funny.

thursday; stupid strike day that the lower schooll got the day off but we didn't. well i was planning to stay home until mr thorpe called and was like you have to come to school otherwise it's truencing? i mean wtf? i was at home sleeping nicely. so i spent ages getting ready and went in period two. catering was okay. well it was barable. yay no geography sat in a hall for an hour. aftrnoon was shit. got my re take marks back. A & E. wooo accident and emergency. fits welli think. a in biology [which i alreay had] and E in chemstry.
well i'm staying with my D in cheistry from the first takes. and whichever was the higher A. lol i don't undertsand though cuz i only revised for the chemsitry paper.
but i got a A in physic and B in the other biology so it's all okay.

friday;  stayed at home, couldn't bare school anymore. did art coursework. school didn't call? lol i was surprsed. mum wasn't to please that i hadn't told her i was staying home but she coped. uhh, she recons i made myself sick? pffft whatever.

saturday; work was easy, it went quickly and i've got two more hours on a tuesday aswel now. soi get £30 a week now. :D which is good.

today; was okay. havn't done much. i brought new pencils for art, highlight of my day and finihed reading before i die, it was so good. 

uh, me and craig like text every night now? and it's really strange not even about things just like howt he day was and yesterday about he football etc it's so strange. i'm not sure wether i like it or not. well. >.< my hopes are still up and i'm not sure why cuz i know it's c ompletly over and ill never see him again but i don't know. >.<
mmm he might be in town when me and emily go and see hadouken! ? we'll see.

i still don't sleep in my bedroom because i can't bare to wake up and see ' i love you' written on my wall, even though i've coverd it up, i know it's under there, it's odd. but yeah. 
ot mu8ch else to say.
this week should be pretty shit to say the least. maths and english mockssssssss argh.

love to all

braggermuffin [userpic]


April 23rd, 2008 (05:15 pm)

You Lack Confidence

You're not so sure of yourself - and it shows more than you think

Your lack of confidence affects your friendships, career, and romantic life

People know that they can take advantage of you, because you won't stand up to them

Start realizing that you're great the way you are, and almost everything in your life will improve

braggermuffin [userpic]

i finally figured it out;

April 22nd, 2008 (04:27 pm)

that all our dreams have no limitations.

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.

Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time.

Your flirting style: Coy

Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park

Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant

What you bring to relationships: Romance

You Are A Blue Girl

Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.

You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.

If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.

You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

You are a Romantic Realist

Okay, so you fall in the middle.

You know that love isn't like a greeting card...

Yet you can always find a greeting card to describe your feelings.

You are the best of both worlds

Girly yet independent, dreamy yet serious.

Almost any guy can find balance with you.

You Are An Attention Seeker

You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then.

You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing.

And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement.

You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine.

You come across as: Friendly and interesting

People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are!

You Are a Comma

You are open minded and extremely optimistic.

You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything.

You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests.

You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time.

Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to.

(But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.)

You excel in: Inspiring people

You get along best with: The Question Mark

You Should Get an Abstract Tattoo

Artistic and unique

You're the most likely type to personally design your tattoo

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Felt like I was just a victim, And it cut me like a knife,

April 20th, 2008 (08:03 pm)

current location: home.
current mood: happy
current song: cry - rihanna.

When you walked out of my life,
Now I'm in this condition,
And I've got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart,
But no matter what you'll never see me cry.

You Would Choose Love

Money may buy a little happiness, but not the happiness of true love.

You rather have a true soulmate than a private jet.

And while many people may claim they would choose love too...

You're one of the few who would really do it.

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values.

Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love.

But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question.

No matter what, you love yourself the most!

You Are A Little Snobby

And being a little snobby every once and a while is totally allowed.

Because if no one was ever snobby, no one would ever try to dress up or look pretty.

And while you do enjoy the finest things in life (that you can afford), you tire of superficiality.

You know there's more to life than what's just on the surface.

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!

You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.

You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.

You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...

You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.

Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.

Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.

Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.

Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.

Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.

Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best color to attract mate: Green

Best day for a date: Wednesday

You Are 37% Fake

The real you is something you embrace and don't mind enhancing.

You know that a few beauty secrets aren't a big deal, as long as you look good.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.

You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:




Cognitive Science



braggermuffin [userpic]

Writer's Block: Dream Job

April 14th, 2008 (06:33 pm)

What's keeping you from your dream job?
the fact that i'm probably not clever enough to achieve it.

braggermuffin [userpic]

Writer's Block: The Perfect Crime

April 4th, 2008 (11:50 am)

What was the last thing you "got away with?"
the summer if year 7 ;]

braggermuffin [userpic]

Writer's Block: Spring Cleaning

April 3rd, 2008 (09:01 pm)

Are you planning on doing any spring cleaning this year? If so, please share a cleaning tip you swear by.
well i always clean my room when i'm really upset or angry. because i end up throwing things everywhere and then i tidy it. :| lame i know but it's whatt i have to do, so you can imagine that my room is pretty clean round about now. :| 
but normally the best thing to do is wait 'til is so messy and like icky and then cleasn cuz you get most satisfaction once you've cleaned it.

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April 2nd, 2008 (10:42 pm)

 i'm going to stop pretending i'm okay, cuz i'm really not, i'm tourturing myself inside.

i hate this feeling i want it to go away, and as much as i can't wait to go skiing, it's jsut going to bring back memories of me meeting him and kissing etc. :) it was such a happy time and i don't want to rememebr. :|
i'm only fifteen you should never feel this way, for fucks sake i'm having 'i hate life days' all the fucking time, jsut want everything to dispaear and go home and leave me alone and stop making old memories come back.
i'm having dreams of when we first meet and like of bournemouth and etccc. and i'm really not liking it.

iu want to curl up into a ball and just cry and cry until i can cry no more. and i haven't slept properly and everythings just way to hard. :|

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek, i need to find a way to get over him. 

or back with him you know either way. :|

mehhhhhhhh, icbf with school tomorrow, i want to talk to you and tell you i still love you but i don't want to call you, call me? no you wont you didn't when we were going out so why would you even bother now? it's not like you still care about me or want to know how i am? and how the fuck i've been coping without you, well you know what not very fucking well, you're making me not sleep and hardly eat!  and i hate talking about this with people and i don;t know what to say and it all get's very difficult but this is how i really feel well to a certain extent and i was to die inside and never do anything again and jsut sleep all day. you know nothing seems worth living for anymore and i don't care if i sound pathetic because i'm so upset right now i reallty couldn't give to shits. i don't think i can even imagine to be friends with you? i wouldn't know how, we weren't friends to start with. it's jsut going to make everything so much harder. 
i;m going to go cry myself to sleeep. and then act all happy and normal at school tomorrow, because i don't cry. :| and i hate not loooking like i can;t take care of myself because i can and i don't want people feeling sorry for me because it's my own fault i gave him everything and look what i got in return. i set myself up for a broken heart and it's what i've got. >.<  i told you things i would never dream of telling anyone. 
i just want a cuddle and kiss to know everythings going to be alright, but i'm not going to get it. because it;s never going to be the same ever again. i was happy. >.<

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April 1st, 2008 (09:57 pm)
current song: Secondhand Serenade - fall for you.

okay, teeenager cancer trust year ten summer concert going okay! :D 
me and izzie have half a comitee. wahhhey. and some people performing. so it's all good, i can't wait. 
i have this amazing image in my head of how amzing it's going to be hahaa. :/ 

my new room mum said it sounded good to have a caligrapher come in and write on my walls in nice writing if that's what i wanted.

so i got down to a few songs.

i think i'm going to have four songs written on the walls.

the academy is....   either - slow down or everything we had.
the rocket summer      either. -  tell me something good or so much love.
boys like girls. - broken man.
mayday parade. either... miserable at best or when i get home your so dead.

or possibly halleujah - i can't even remember that mans nameeeeeee hagash it'll come to me later.
and maybe collide - howie day cuz it's beauitful. :)

or or or 
i might just have emily lyrics written up


emily - from first to last.
see emily play - pink floyd.
emily - stephen fretwell

etcetc the list goes on.

mmmm, i like the sound of my new room and my emily bed. :D

so let me know what you tihnk>?!?!?!

also, i dead excited for upcoming gigs.

the rocket summer in portsmouth 1st july! eeeeeeek, i nearly exploded when i saw the emails.
and cute is what  we aim for and boys like girl co headlining. :D

and me and emmmers are going to see hadouken! woooooooo. 

haha and avril lavigne. ;]

anyway, my weekend was fine, i didn't do much, i had such a busy week last week that i needed time to myself to think everything over everyone was keeping me so busy.  i spent alot of sunday crying in the evening. :/ but town was goood with lillers. :) and wrestling. ;] hahaha and my god does jacob know friends welll he knew which episode he wanted to watch that itr was first season 1st disc side B second on down! it was insane! 

monday, was bait, i'm really getting sick of school, i just want it to be the end of year eleven. meh another year and half to goooo.
shit i still didn't talk to miss kent, what is wrong with me being so forgettful. >.< 
today i was convinsing my mum that i was really ill and couldn't go to school at like 7. it didn't work. i hate her not being at work i could've just taken the day off otherwise. mehmehemhemeheme. and then i fell back alseep as per usual and woke up again at eight thirty cuz thye doorbell rang. and i was like shitttttttttttttttttttttttt. ahaha my mum thought i'd already left for school. i made it in for period one jsut about like ten minutes late.
me and emily came home at lunch ate toast. mmmm. uhhhh nothing else really happened. went to town with me mum and brought proper pjs! wow i got overexcited i haven't had any of them in god knows how long and there snooopy and i got some footless tights. 

lalalala, i'm pretty happy.



braggermuffin [userpic]

Writer's Block: Friends Forever

March 30th, 2008 (07:58 pm)

What do you bring most to a friendship?
tbh? i've no idea, you'd have to ask my friends.

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